Last week, I decided to rewatch Eat, Pray, Love the movie with Julia Roberts, born from the book written by Elizabeth Gilbert. I had read the book and watched the movie years ago. I was younger, still living in Italy with my parents and, yes, I was traveling thru Europe but not longer than 10 days.
I always defined this book as one of my favorites, even though it seated in my Italian bookshelf for years. I don’t really like to reread books or re-watch movies (just Harry Potter is an exception), so when the other day I found Eat, Pray, Love on Netflix I weirdly thought: “why not?”
The word antevasin appears in the book when she’s in the Ashram in India. She reads it in an old text about yoga and it describes the antevasin as “a person who lives at the border.”
“So I saw it during my last week at the Ashram, I was reading through an old text about yoga when I found a description of ancient spiritual seekers. A Sanskrit word appeared in the paragraph: ANTEVASIN. It means, ‘one who lives at the border.’ In ancient times, this was a literal description. It indicated a person who had left the bustling center of worldly life to go live at the edge of the forest where the spiritual masters dwelled. The antevasin was not of the villager’s anymore-not a householder with a conventional life. But neither was he yet a transcendent-not one of those sages who live deep in the unexplored woods, fully realized. The antevasin was an in-betweener. He was a border-dweller. He lived in sight of both worlds, but he looked toward the unknown. And he was a scholar.”Elizabeth Gilbert – Eat, Pray, Love.
Am I too an antevasin?
My life lately has been definitely been an in-between. I live catching flights from Italy to Spain and viceversa, I have an Italian phone but I should definitely change to a Spanish one, I speak daily three languages shifting between them without even realizing it, I forget some words, remembering them minutes after. Some people may think this is overwhelming, I think that’s beautiful.
I’ve learned so much about me in the last years thru traveling, that this idea of catching flights doesn’t really bother me. I don’t even mind living in a place where finding a job is a problem, because that’s forcing me to create my own job and be my own boss. This constant living in between, this constant living on the line, that’s what makes me feel alive.
If you think adventure is dangerous, try routine; it is lethal.Paulo Coelho.
I’ve never read anything by Paulo Coelho, but I totally agree with this quote. I think that I’m an antevasin because I have this desire of living in-between, to be always on the go, to set the next goals to reach. If I sit and do nothing, I feel like I’m slowly dying without accomplishing anything with my life. When I have plans, stupid ones too, I feel like I’m thriving. I love to have my agenda filled, to see my clients improve, create new content, get better in skills that I’ve never thought I would have wanted to improve. Learn.
Am I the only one?
I don’t think so. I believe out there there are a lot of antevasin. For years, I thought I wasn’t right with this desire to live always on the go. Now, I don’t care if there are other people like me, I overcame that phase when I was asking myself why I was so different. I’m alright with who I am.
I’m a in-betweener, a border-dweller, I’m an antevasin.
If you feel like you are too, share a comment down below or reach out to me in my social medias, I would love to talk with you.